Cinta Cyber

My friend use to tell me hey why dont you go into the internet and look for Jodoh coz alot of people meet their soul mate via internet? I look at her & start laughing ..hahahaha what you think I am that desparate?? I socialize and had many contacts in real life so why should I turn to internet to find love.. So when I started Facebook it was all one of my old school mates Idea Khairy (thanks bro) my intention was jus to connect to old friends & families but it then spread from one thing to another...Besides getting in touch with them well since I am quite fond of Politics so tak salah memberi sedikit idea juga di FB.. Get to know new people.. I think part of it also come through from reader from my blog... thank you friends.. So as I make friends and most of us start changing ideas we became close although some tak pernah jumpa. I didnt have any intention to fall in love with anyone because I mean hey we only seen pictures so we dont know who some of them are. But suddenly without my realising I kind of miss this person when he didnt reply my status because before that he was the one who always there for me and so is some of them. But still I think ahhh is jus normal kott.. but then I remember when I wrote something on my wall was about "playing " It was meant to be a Joke & I love teasing the men he responded so nicely that I felt "WOW" so I straight away inbox him "Im Notty?" Jokingly.. he reply I still remember and said "your nice girl & have good heart" "wink" ... so few days later as I was in the office I remember it was raining heavily in December Christmas season normally I kind of feel romantic during this period hehehe dont know why.. I thought of him and I inbox in facebook ask him hey where are you & whats your number coz few time he did tease me about me not giving my fone number. I mean I dont jus give my number to anybody, basically I bukannya suka berbual di telephone I love my own privacy. so then he reply so funny that he too was thinking about me earlier so he then gave his number & I text me him I remember he reply "Ini number you sayang"!! Oh god my heart jus melts suddenly I feel butterfly in my stomach that is when I realised Oh god am I inlove with this person without even seeing him. Strange coz never in my life I would ever imagine these things could happened to me. So I did try to avoid coz maybe its jus something that shouldnt get carried away..But it get more worst after seeing him responding to other ladies and I get more jelous everytime...I mean its jus normal and he knows about it and I think he kind of get angry with me .. seriously I didnt mean at all whats there to be jelous he says he doesnt like it. and I did say something which I think does hurt his feelings... He ever told me " A man in love tends to be sensitives" .. I mean it same goes with woman and its true I mean if a woman tend to push a man to much she would push him away.. but he should then realise I like to joke & playing with my words I mean he use to respond to whatever I wrote before when we are "Friends" suddenly when we started having that so call "feeling" everything become so sensitive...

i kalau marah sekejap saja esok lusa I dah cool down Im ok except something major then I would not want to turn back, but maybe not eveyone like me..:(( we spoke on the fone once he did say he jus afraid when I see him in person I would not want to continue... I understand but no harm to go on I jus wish he could jus stay as what he used to be. Im not sure but I kept thinking about him & sometimes it makes me cry I dont know why but he occupies my heart because I know he is nice person.. Dua kali I mimpi dia pakai baju putih so mesti dia orang baikkan.....I do miss him but if its not meant for you its not meant for you...I wonder why things suddenly turn to unexpected. I never want it to be like that it was not planned you cant force love it comes by itself naturally...Relationship is not only about material I mean ofcoz it does play an important role but true love is priceless.... Its not an easy thing for me to falling love unless that person has got that something special which is the X factor...