Alfatihah to Tony Castillo (December 2010)

Was shocked when I recieved a call last week from Idrus telling me Tony Castillo passsed away ex business partner & friend Idrus. Tony who acted as a Son to Tan Sri P Ramlee in Anakku Sazali dan telah memenangi Anugerah International for the part. I was told he then migrated to USA and was there for many years and recently came back to Singapore his dream was to start a school of arts & entertainment. I met Tony Last year was introduced by my ertainment for youngsters at Iskandar Johor. He discussed it with me but well I dont know why I jus feel its quite a big thing to handle & a lot of work to be done. I talk to many people about it some agree some not so I jus forget about it. Tony is a very nice person he is willing to give many ideas to people and help if people are in trouble tidak pernah lokek dgn pengalaman dan wang ringgit.

I feel sad because I did spent quite a number of times with him together wt the rest of our entertainment friends. Minum Teh Tarek melepak di kedai kopi ketawa sampai pecah pecah perut. I was the only girl lah kalau part melepak tu lain semua abang abang..

Bila ada yang nak di discus he will sms me and tell me what to do keep me motivated even though dia dah berumur tapi energy level dia tinggi dari yang muda he got brilliant ideas and many connections so proud of him.

He converted Islam so bila mereka melepak mereka akan berbual mengenaii isi Alquran yg sgt dalam meaningnya and I will jus sit and listen. He did told me about what happened last year he collapse and blood coming out from his body was sent to the Hospital and doctor told his family to be prepared for the worst but after three days dgn kuasa Allah Swt dia kembali sembuh. he then starts working again. The last time I met him during fasting month all of us break fast together & we called Tony he came .. I look at him and notice that he is not well can see from the look of his eyes. His tummy getting bigger dia seperti menahan kesakitan I know he got liver problem tapi kerana dia punya kekuatan untuk terus hidup he manage to go on living.

Selepas itu I rasa ingin call tanya khabar tapi selalu terlupa sehinggalah mendapat call dari idrus rasa sedih sgt dan kesal kerana tak sempat call apapun kenangan bersama pelakon veteran ini tidak akan pernah luput dari ingatan ku Semoga Rohnya Dicucuri Rahmat..

Natural Beauty & Botox - show what you have

Im am very fortunate to have that natural beauty ofcoz Im not that drop dead gorgeous but Alhamdulilah Im very thankfull of what I have. Theres no botox no plastic surgery but I do take supplements & so call collagen for my face & body. Excercise sometimes not all the time but I love dancing each time listening to sexy music and I will dance sexily jus to keep my shape intact. But now Im abit older so hehehehe not as perfect as when Im younger though but I still got that body of a when I twenties... gullp.. You see beauty came from the heart also as a muslim praying & zikir is something that I do on certain nite. I will feel at peace theres no one else you can turn to except Allah SWT... Even though when times when I do have some personal problems I jus leave it to him and I dont take it so hard I relax come down n enjoy my life. Because when you takes things too seriously your face will show.. Ok now I wanna talk about Beauty...

I notice many woman nowadays they tend to do botox, plastic surgery most do not have that natural beauty at all.. In Singapore for instance most woman are not pretty jus becoz of their dressing and make up ofcoz Botox its common. In Malaysia I think the one who did their faces are actresses singers n some VIP's. yelah ada duit semua boleh buat.

What I notice most within this regent is that Indian woman are the least using botox or plastic surgery they quite natural, second Malay ladies they do have that natural beauty but there are maybe 40% had their face done like botox etc. Chinese ladies are one the most botox users they somehow did their nose almost everything. European hmmm I think the superstars had their face done aswell as body.. I mean you can see if its natural or not.

I was reading a newspaper here in Singapore they have these weekly paper called Urban about fashion and to my surprised some ladies they so ugly looking but they really got the chick to rate themselves on higher scale when the reporter interviewed them... hahahah simply no shame....I wonder whther they do look at themselves in the mirror first. I can tell you if not becoz of their dressing & botox I would give some of them 3/10....Im not trying to critises but its the fact. I dont dare to judge myself even though people say Im beautyful coz as a human no one is perfect isnt it...If you wanna see if that woman is a real beauty should look at them when they wake up in the morning.

Another thing is I know that I am a Muslim I should not post sexy or show off my aurat BUT I cant take it if other girls from other races or religion can show their beauty to everyone and people adored them including Muslim Man but when it comes to Muslim ladies we got critices...I think that is not fair Muslim ladies Malays, Arabs, indonesian all of us have got that natural beauty so why should we hide? We must be proud of what God gave its a miracle. Alhamdulilah .

AS long as we dont do things to harm others . Semua bangsa lain tunjukkan kecantikkan mereka kenapa tidak wanita Melayu.. hmm sgt rugi kita mesti lawan we have got nice tits & butt show to them ...ofcozlah takkan nak telanjang we mus love our body dont let anyone bring us down they have no right...Mus have that self confidence dont be afraid. bila masa nak bertudung bertudunglah...kadang orang yang bertudung tu pun belum tahu perfect kan so we mus got that limit know when to start & stop. As long as man dont take any advantge of you mus know what you are doing. I know what Im doing and Im here to share my views many things I would have wantinf to say but at the moment jus this I leave it to you to think further