Alfatihah to Tony Castillo (December 2010)

Was shocked when I recieved a call last week from Idrus telling me Tony Castillo passsed away ex business partner & friend Idrus. Tony who acted as a Son to Tan Sri P Ramlee in Anakku Sazali dan telah memenangi Anugerah International for the part. I was told he then migrated to USA and was there for many years and recently came back to Singapore his dream was to start a school of arts & entertainment. I met Tony Last year was introduced by my ertainment for youngsters at Iskandar Johor. He discussed it with me but well I dont know why I jus feel its quite a big thing to handle & a lot of work to be done. I talk to many people about it some agree some not so I jus forget about it. Tony is a very nice person he is willing to give many ideas to people and help if people are in trouble tidak pernah lokek dgn pengalaman dan wang ringgit.

I feel sad because I did spent quite a number of times with him together wt the rest of our entertainment friends. Minum Teh Tarek melepak di kedai kopi ketawa sampai pecah pecah perut. I was the only girl lah kalau part melepak tu lain semua abang abang..

Bila ada yang nak di discus he will sms me and tell me what to do keep me motivated even though dia dah berumur tapi energy level dia tinggi dari yang muda he got brilliant ideas and many connections so proud of him.

He converted Islam so bila mereka melepak mereka akan berbual mengenaii isi Alquran yg sgt dalam meaningnya and I will jus sit and listen. He did told me about what happened last year he collapse and blood coming out from his body was sent to the Hospital and doctor told his family to be prepared for the worst but after three days dgn kuasa Allah Swt dia kembali sembuh. he then starts working again. The last time I met him during fasting month all of us break fast together & we called Tony he came .. I look at him and notice that he is not well can see from the look of his eyes. His tummy getting bigger dia seperti menahan kesakitan I know he got liver problem tapi kerana dia punya kekuatan untuk terus hidup he manage to go on living.

Selepas itu I rasa ingin call tanya khabar tapi selalu terlupa sehinggalah mendapat call dari idrus rasa sedih sgt dan kesal kerana tak sempat call apapun kenangan bersama pelakon veteran ini tidak akan pernah luput dari ingatan ku Semoga Rohnya Dicucuri Rahmat..

Natural Beauty & Botox - show what you have

Im am very fortunate to have that natural beauty ofcoz Im not that drop dead gorgeous but Alhamdulilah Im very thankfull of what I have. Theres no botox no plastic surgery but I do take supplements & so call collagen for my face & body. Excercise sometimes not all the time but I love dancing each time listening to sexy music and I will dance sexily jus to keep my shape intact. But now Im abit older so hehehehe not as perfect as when Im younger though but I still got that body of a when I twenties... gullp.. You see beauty came from the heart also as a muslim praying & zikir is something that I do on certain nite. I will feel at peace theres no one else you can turn to except Allah SWT... Even though when times when I do have some personal problems I jus leave it to him and I dont take it so hard I relax come down n enjoy my life. Because when you takes things too seriously your face will show.. Ok now I wanna talk about Beauty...

I notice many woman nowadays they tend to do botox, plastic surgery most do not have that natural beauty at all.. In Singapore for instance most woman are not pretty jus becoz of their dressing and make up ofcoz Botox its common. In Malaysia I think the one who did their faces are actresses singers n some VIP's. yelah ada duit semua boleh buat.

What I notice most within this regent is that Indian woman are the least using botox or plastic surgery they quite natural, second Malay ladies they do have that natural beauty but there are maybe 40% had their face done like botox etc. Chinese ladies are one the most botox users they somehow did their nose almost everything. European hmmm I think the superstars had their face done aswell as body.. I mean you can see if its natural or not.

I was reading a newspaper here in Singapore they have these weekly paper called Urban about fashion and to my surprised some ladies they so ugly looking but they really got the chick to rate themselves on higher scale when the reporter interviewed them... hahahah simply no shame....I wonder whther they do look at themselves in the mirror first. I can tell you if not becoz of their dressing & botox I would give some of them 3/10....Im not trying to critises but its the fact. I dont dare to judge myself even though people say Im beautyful coz as a human no one is perfect isnt it...If you wanna see if that woman is a real beauty should look at them when they wake up in the morning.

Another thing is I know that I am a Muslim I should not post sexy or show off my aurat BUT I cant take it if other girls from other races or religion can show their beauty to everyone and people adored them including Muslim Man but when it comes to Muslim ladies we got critices...I think that is not fair Muslim ladies Malays, Arabs, indonesian all of us have got that natural beauty so why should we hide? We must be proud of what God gave its a miracle. Alhamdulilah .

AS long as we dont do things to harm others . Semua bangsa lain tunjukkan kecantikkan mereka kenapa tidak wanita Melayu.. hmm sgt rugi kita mesti lawan we have got nice tits & butt show to them ...ofcozlah takkan nak telanjang we mus love our body dont let anyone bring us down they have no right...Mus have that self confidence dont be afraid. bila masa nak bertudung bertudunglah...kadang orang yang bertudung tu pun belum tahu perfect kan so we mus got that limit know when to start & stop. As long as man dont take any advantge of you mus know what you are doing. I know what Im doing and Im here to share my views many things I would have wantinf to say but at the moment jus this I leave it to you to think further

Be Kind Animals

Dont even try to be cruel to animals coz you will somehow get a retribution. I am very angry and against people torturing and abuse animals for their own profits. Like the one involve in Circus, race or Shows that involves animals. Animals they cant speak or complain even though they in pain but some human beings they only think of themselves. I rather torture people who abuse the animals coz I want them to know how it feels to be tortured. I have read news on some sick people abusing cats or dogs etc I think such idiot should be punished severely....

Jangan lah sesekali kita menganiaya haiwan tak kiralah haiwan yang macam mana kerana haiwan juga punya perasaan. Sya melihat sebuah documentary mengenaii orang orang yang menangkap kerbau di TV1 rasa sedih melihat kerbau itu ditarik dan diikat dengan cara begitu kasar.. manusia tidak pernah fikir sekiranya mereka sendiri diperbuat begitu... tidak kah ada cara lain..yang mungkin tidak menyiksa haiwan itu. Begitu juga bila saya melihat Kuda Kuda yang bertanding di gelangang begitu juga haiwan haiwan lain seperti gajah, beruang etc yang beraksi di dalam sarkis mereka seperti dipaksa berbuat sesuatu yang mereka tidak rela..
Kadang apabila saya drive around or walk around saya lihat kucing atau anjing berkeliaran terdetik hati adakah manusia yang mempunyaii hati perut memberi makan kepada mereka. Take the initiative to go to the shop & buy food for these animals and feed them even though these animals are not under their care. Me & my mum will always do that and so is some of my friends.. for us we should put ourselves in the animals shoes... jgn lah kita kira anjing ke apa mereka tetap makhluk Allah Swt...Unless they harmfull to people tapi percayalah kalau kita niat baik binatang akan tahu dan dapat rasa sama ada manusia itu baik atau tidak.
Hanya satu jangan kita menganiaya haiwan kerana haiwan juga berdoa kepada yang menjadikannya...

Humble Human Being

If only people know who I am involve with in the past then maybe they would understand why I am still single. From red carpet to yellow carpet from six star hotel to a Big huge Bangalow but I am still a humble person who lives normally like an other ordinary people. If I am an actress or a singer probably I have more Gossips then any one of them but becoz I am not a public figure so it doesnt matter. That is why I dont wanna be someone popular although I love singing because I treasure my privacy very much. There are times when I jus wanna look ugly and not want people to look at me. You see I dont ask for all these things to happened but it did maybe god jus wants me to experience & understands what human being really are. From Rich to the Poor I can mingle with anyone & be jus like one of them if theres a need.

Like my best friends use to tell me "You very good Sha you jus know how to put yourself in any situations" and thats very true

Well was born that way I guess its in the blood.

I was with someone for 10 years if I were to patient maybe I would have married him and be a "Puan Sri" .... If tidak pun a second wife to a VVIP but becoz Im quite hard headed and not sure at that time if now maybe I am very sure hahahha. Takpelah bukan jodoh saya walau ramai kata saya stupid . But during those period maybe I am being to nice & trust people too much that is why.

I am the sort tak suka orang mengada ngada, berlagak, sombong paling I benci...Pernah sekali I was invited to attend a VIP house so called Datuk & Datin.. My friend who asking me to tag along so three of us went, it was rather a nice home they invited all the who & who again I dont give a damn. As I walked in ofcozlah all the men tend to look at me cuma the woman they look with one kind of stare...so i buat muka selamba lah after ambil makanan we sat at one table then two of my friend both were guys hilang pergi mana I tak tahu left me alone there eating suddenly a group of VIP wives & kids (daughters) looked at me wt one kind of look all of a sudden they crowd around my table dengan muka sombong .. GOSSH I can tell you all of them really plastic lahh .... macam mana you all kalau tengok TV how these Rich people react samalah diluar...meluat I wahhh cant stand it.. but these happened many years back so maybe now people are different ..They kept talking to each other and jeling jeling I pulak tu as usual me & my humble self kept to myself. Suddenly my ex boyfriend came wt his brother & wife ( my ex ni memang ramai segan dgn dialah very wel known & respectable) He came saw me & came straight to my table & sat with me all eyes were looking and guess what all the woman around earlier on yang mengada ngada tu start to be nice to me... Suddenly semua berubah become so hypocrite ...That is why I malasss nak mix wt golongan "elite" lah kononnya.. I am not want to say normally kerabat diraja that i with ramai yang humble yang suka berlagak golongan VIP biasa yang mungkin baru kenal erti senang padahal semua pun orang kampung jugakan...

Why cant the be humble harta pun tak bawak masuk kuburkan amalan kita saja....That is why Allah always give me a surprised through out my life although there are times dugaan banyak but bersyukur i rasa apa yang mungkin ramai tak pernah merasa it is becoz my humble charactor tak pernah pilih bulu untuk berkawan lebih senang kepada kawan yang jujur & down to earth.... Its very important...

John Wee Chong Jin Pass Away

I was shocked & saddened by the death of my very old friend John Wee he is the son of ex Chief Justice Of Singapore and a well known businessman from Singapore. I used to date him many years ago. I got to know him in one of the Club In Singapore he was very humble & kind even though he came from a very well known family he never look down on others & treat everyone the same. I remembr when he called me on our first date & brought me for lunch then to his big bungalow where his family lives. we went out several times together with his goodfriends for Karaoke and clubs...Sometimes when i got angry he jus cool down he is not the kind that gets angry very easily even though we"re not together we still good friends. I still could not forget on one of New Years Day In Sparks Disco after the countdown I was sitting in one of the sofa in the VIP area .. all the Tycoon Businessman most are Chinese were there & he was there as well ofcoz.. he then came direct to me held out his hands to me & I took his hands stood up & we both hug each other infront of everyone..his tall & good looking has got this great personality.

I do call & sms him sometime after that but have not done so for a couple of years and suddenly heard the news that his gone I was feeling very sad and started to miss him alot now but then its too late to say goodbye.. May his soul rest in peace

Expressing MySelf

I have many sexy pictures on my Facebook account , some people like it some complained. But seriously I dont care. I Love expressing myself I dont get to do this before I want people to know the real Sherry... Deep down I am a very sexy person... Most of my ex boyfriends didnt know abt becoz most dont have that great chance to live with me or be in Bed wt me "ahaks". Im in my mid thirties and I feel very confident of myself I am very happy with myself now I feel great at this age. Woman should know how to love themselves appreciate what they have and they will look beautiful naturally.

Sedekah senyuman pada orang sekeliling jangan sesekali kita berlagak sombong nescaya wajah kita akan terpancar hati kita harus bersih. Tapi biasalah sebagai manusia kita tidak dapat lari but ingat pada Allah SWT selalu insyaallah perasaan yang tidak baik akan hilang.

Happy Mothers Day Mum

I would like to wish my dearest Mother a Happy Mothers day... My mother is very different from any mothers out there. A very difficult person to please my cousins all knows about my mum's character sometimes they symphatize me. She makes me do things her way and she will always checked with who Im out with, she do scan my friends too. Maybe because Im the only daughter so cant blame her for being over protective. She is not only my mother she is also a good friend she saw me laugh, cry, happy or sad and if I have any problem that I cant solve normally I will ask her for a solutions and she did give me good advice.....When I was a little girl mum always showered me with expensive gives but at the same times she makes sure Im not spoiled. Ever once when she was admitted to hospital I was all alone I cried and afraid of something might happen to her. As I walked out from the hospital I cried & sat down didnt know what to do I felt lost suddenly theres an old lady came to me she sat by my side & start chatting with me, she ask me to have lunch with her and I did. Seriously Im not sure where the aunty came from but I was touched at the time when I needed someone to talk too Allah swt sent someone. My cousin ramai but as usual tak mahu menyusahkan sesiapa coz I know god will always be there for me. When I was admitted to hospital & felt sick my mum was the one who's been there. She never sleep always wakes up & make sure Im alright. Itulah kasih ibu tiada siapa yang boleh menandinginya.

My mum is very fierce well lets jus say it runs in the family... Jus like my late grandfather no one dares to do anything funny. Me & mum always argue with each other on certain things but after that we become best of friends. I am taking care of her now even though there are time she make me stress... selalu tanya bila kau nak kahwin umur kau dah berapa aku dah tua nak ada cucu.... alamak pening kepala..

Sebagai seorang anak yang baik kita harus senantiasa mendoakan Ibu dan senantiasa memohon agar segala dosa dosa kita dan ibu senantiasa diampunkan Allah SWT. I Love you Mama.... Insyaallah satu hari nanti akan ku bawa mu ke tanah suci Mekah.. amin..

KIDNAPPED

When I read about kids being kidnapped, tortured and abused by people whom they know or they not know it reminds me of my own life threatening story. When I was about 16 Ive been kidnapped by a man who use to come to shop where I worked during my school holidays I was supposed to be home by 10 pm but didnt get there. Was told by the investigator that a couple planned to kidnapped me and they spiked my drink. The next thing I knew when I open my eyes I was in their and I felt like throwing up so I quickly rush to the toilet. In the house I saw a woman but I was too drowsy to notice anything but he then let me sleep in the living room and I kept telling them I wanna go home my parents is waiting for me. They jus ignore me I was feeling very scared and I cried & cried. Masa itu Allah swt sahaja yang tahu perasaan saya terkenangkan Ibu...

At this time my parents went searching for me everywhere they report to the police and a few of my abang saudara (cousins) actually started calling their group of friends to try to locate me everywhere. I ada ramai abang saudara few of them police inspector. At this time all of them including my mum my aunty & uncles semua tak tidur kerana mereka risau kan saya. Malam sudah semakin larut tepat pukul 3 pagi seluruh keluarga Bapa saudara saya mengambil air sembahayang dan solat hajat. At that moment the men who kidnapped me & the lady already felt asleep and me too but eventually dengan juasa Allah swt berkat doa Bapa Saudara saya dan keluarga saya, saya terjaga dan perlahan lahan bangun dan menuju ke pintu untuk membuka pintu but when I went to open the door the gate was locked. Pintu pagar nya di mangga saya sempat mencari cari kunci didalam rumah itu dan saya lihat dia letakkan di atas peti TV, so I took the key but key tu ada banyak I panic coz takut mereka terbangun dan menghalang saya. dengan tidak membuang masa saya cuba sekali membuka tapi tak berjaya menggigil gigil tangan saya kedua kali pun tak berjaya tapi dengan kuasa Allah ketiga kalinya I manage to open the locked.. Alhamdulilah, saya pun apa lagi terus lari keluar dengan kaki ayam tidak sempat mencari kasut but before that I saw he put the money beside the keys at that moment I teringat juga nak naik taxi so I jus took the cash coz i couldnt find my wallet. Saya pun menahan taxi dan terus pulang kerumah ibu saudara menangis nangis at that time its already near to 6 am... my aunty menangis melihat dan terus memeluk saya. My parents jangan cakaplah mereka bersyukur I manage to escaped. The next day we made a police report and I had to go to the hospital for check my parents got call in & the doctors told them they lucky that I was not harmed at all not sure what is their intention probably nak jual I kat luar negara. if not because of solat hajat that was done by my family members tak mungkin saya berada disini. Mungkin juga dengan my family background yang memang kuat agama yang salah satu sebab mereka tidak bisa berbuat tidak baik but Alhamdulilah saya bersyukur dan kerana peristiwa itu jugalah membawa saya berhati hati dengan manusia sekeliling..

Cinta Cyber

My friend use to tell me hey why dont you go into the internet and look for Jodoh coz alot of people meet their soul mate via internet? I look at her & start laughing ..hahahaha what you think I am that desparate?? I socialize and had many contacts in real life so why should I turn to internet to find love.. So when I started Facebook it was all one of my old school mates Idea Khairy (thanks bro) my intention was jus to connect to old friends & families but it then spread from one thing to another...Besides getting in touch with them well since I am quite fond of Politics so tak salah memberi sedikit idea juga di FB.. Get to know new people.. I think part of it also come through from reader from my blog... thank you friends.. So as I make friends and most of us start changing ideas we became close although some tak pernah jumpa. I didnt have any intention to fall in love with anyone because I mean hey we only seen pictures so we dont know who some of them are. But suddenly without my realising I kind of miss this person when he didnt reply my status because before that he was the one who always there for me and so is some of them. But still I think ahhh is jus normal kott.. but then I remember when I wrote something on my wall was about "playing " It was meant to be a Joke & I love teasing the men he responded so nicely that I felt "WOW" so I straight away inbox him "Im Notty?" Jokingly.. he reply I still remember and said "your nice girl & have good heart" "wink" ... so few days later as I was in the office I remember it was raining heavily in December Christmas season normally I kind of feel romantic during this period hehehe dont know why.. I thought of him and I inbox in facebook ask him hey where are you & whats your number coz few time he did tease me about me not giving my fone number. I mean I dont jus give my number to anybody, basically I bukannya suka berbual di telephone I love my own privacy. so then he reply so funny that he too was thinking about me earlier so he then gave his number & I text me him I remember he reply "Ini number you sayang"!! Oh god my heart jus melts suddenly I feel butterfly in my stomach that is when I realised Oh god am I inlove with this person without even seeing him. Strange coz never in my life I would ever imagine these things could happened to me. So I did try to avoid coz maybe its jus something that shouldnt get carried away..But it get more worst after seeing him responding to other ladies and I get more jelous everytime...I mean its jus normal and he knows about it and I think he kind of get angry with me .. seriously I didnt mean at all whats there to be jelous he says he doesnt like it. and I did say something which I think does hurt his feelings... He ever told me " A man in love tends to be sensitives" .. I mean it same goes with woman and its true I mean if a woman tend to push a man to much she would push him away.. but he should then realise I like to joke & playing with my words I mean he use to respond to whatever I wrote before when we are "Friends" suddenly when we started having that so call "feeling" everything become so sensitive...

i kalau marah sekejap saja esok lusa I dah cool down Im ok except something major then I would not want to turn back, but maybe not eveyone like me..:(( we spoke on the fone once he did say he jus afraid when I see him in person I would not want to continue... I understand but no harm to go on I jus wish he could jus stay as what he used to be. Im not sure but I kept thinking about him & sometimes it makes me cry I dont know why but he occupies my heart because I know he is nice person.. Dua kali I mimpi dia pakai baju putih so mesti dia orang baikkan.....I do miss him but if its not meant for you its not meant for you...I wonder why things suddenly turn to unexpected. I never want it to be like that it was not planned you cant force love it comes by itself naturally...Relationship is not only about material I mean ofcoz it does play an important role but true love is priceless.... Its not an easy thing for me to falling love unless that person has got that something special which is the X factor...

KEMANGKATAN DYMM SULTAN JOHOR SULTAN ISKANDAR

Dah lama i tak update my blog but last weekend i heard bad news the demise of Sultan Iskandar Sultan Johor so I think I must write something about Almarhum Tuanku Sultan. Rasa sangat terkilan dan sedih kerana hanya mendapat khabar last minit. Masa ini pula kaki ku terseliuh dan tidak boleh kemana mana ingin aku menziarahi pemakaman Almarhum Tuanku tapi tidak terdaya. Sedih pula desas desus apa bila mendengar ada sesetengah pihak cuba membuat tohmahan dan fitnah terhadap Almarhum disalah sebuah blog that was told by my others FB friends. Sebagai manusia kita tidak seharusnya menilai seseorang sedangkan kita sendiri tidak mengenali mereka secara peribadi "ANd Thats BAD" ...lagi pula manusia itu sudah meninggal dunia sepatutnya kita sebagai orang Islam sedekah kan fatihah. Coz Allah SWT melihat dan balasan tetap ada kepada sesiapa yang tidak mempunyaii hati naluri yang bersih..



Bebalik kepada ALmarhum Tuanku Sultan, saya menangis kerana kali ini langsung tidak mengetahui Tuanku gering becoz normally I will jus text Dato Z if Tuanku is ok and that I sent my regards. Pada hari Jumaat itu before getting ready to meet my dearest sister Puteri Astrini rasa hati memang tidak sedap I did wrote on my Facebook status ternyata semua benar. Sehingga hari ini saya masih mengenangkan Almarhum Tuanku dan berdoa.

Walaupun Baginda nampak bengis tetapi Baginda sangat prihatin kepada rakyat jelata. Pernah sekali semasa kita dijemput untuk bersantap bersama Baginda disalah sebuah Restaurant selesai sahaja salah seorang Dato went to settle the bills and when Baginda heard the total cost of the bill about more then a thousand he told me "Mahal juga untuk orang yang tidak berkemampuan mereka tak sepatutnya meletak harga begitu tinggi kalau saya memang tak kisah tapi macam mana kalau rakyat yang tak berkemampuan tapi teringin hendak merasa" apa jua yang Almarhum Tuanku lakukan pasti he will think of the rakyat first. Pernah juga satu ketika dijemput untuk menyaksikan "shooting competition" bersama baginda, apabila baginda ternampak beberapa orang penonton sedang berjemur dikawasan panas baginda terus memanggil pengawal supaya diberikan air kepada penonton tersebut. I was so touched by his way selama ini I always think that he is a fierce person and unapproachable but in the end Allah SWT showed me that Almarhum Tuanku is a very special person and he really cares for the rakyat...Once Almarhum Tuanku juga dengan sabar menungguku selama 2 jam kerana ada perkara yang inginku sembahkan. Bila ku tiba walaupun rasa takut tapi Almarhum Tuanku hanya tersenyum dan bergurau..Baginda memang gemar bergurau.

I have not met Almarhum Tuanku for quite sometime becoz of my busy schedule & he is busy with his life so I thought everything is fine only once when I was on Europe trip that I got a call from Dato Z coz Baginda ingin bertanya khabar dan kirim salam. Nomally if pulang Johor I will just visit my brother Tengku Bakar & wifey di Istana TAB.

The reason why I wrote this is because I want them to know that Almarhum Tuanku is a Sultan who cares about his rakyat so much.. Manusia mana yang tidak buat kesilapan bila masa muda but as a Sultan he did a great Job. Baginda adalah orang yang sangat tegas and alot of people respect him for what he is. He is a no nonsense that is what a Sultan should be!! Kita kalau tak kenal orang tu personally we cannot jus menghukum orang sesuka hati.

Without Almarhum Tuanku now is not going to be easy but i hope DYMM Sultan Ibrahim will carry on his father legacy.

Daulat Tuanku!!